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I hardly know what to say. I usually don't say much about these kinds of things. It seems that this society breeds departures of this kind. A very well tended to American value is minding one's own buisness.

I... I vowed to myself to look as hard as I can at people to see who they are and who they could become. I would hope that humanity could seek harmony, without living an eye for an eye always, everyman for himself. With the people in my life, I want to extend anything I can to them. Care, you know? Why? Because I know that hardly anyone else will, all of us rarely meet anyone who is able to give a damn anymore. What kind of existence is that?

But because I know this reality, I know to expect nothing, from any one person. People are not suppliers to my needs so I don't need their civility or their kindness. If I do see it, i recieve it with an appreciation.

It's a sad reality.

But that vow. Not always easy especially in moments like this.

She told me to save my time and stop calling. I've never remembered her like that... That we had gone separate ways and I was just a junior high friend, that I had no reason to tell her how to live her life. I didn't expect to be so misunderstood by one that I respected and looked up to so much. I have no idea what kind of image she has of me that made her say the things that she said. I can see why she came to the conclusion she has, when I think on it, sort of.

I've come to the conclusion that I am not accountable for this. I have no need to prove anything more than I already have. And so I expect nothing. However it does add an odd stillness to my day. I can laugh about it sometimes.