she drinks coffee at midnight, when the moment is not right

It just bit through me just now... Just a glimpse of the corner was all, the closet slightly agape, files from the cabinet, my chair at an angle. The moudling on the corner. My place for thinking has changed. How simple really so why should a small detail make so much fuss?

It used to be the ceiling, I'd be on my back looking up at my paper snowflakes, maybe upstairs curled on the couch stairing out the window. Where I would let my mind unravel, my thoughts saturate into a new feeling.

I am trying to put familiarity into this corner. I usually can keep a degree of familiarity along with me, wherever I am. Not when I drift off into my own world though. I really daydream alot, just get lost in my own world, spend hours just thinking... But with all that I need, the distance I drift needs an anchor, a thing of familiarity. Especially at that point where I go back to whatever I've needed to do and pull away my gaze from those particular spots. The bending of light through the shades, a faint twirl of my snowflake.

Oh goodness. I need more Chai.

Why is it that we feel we can't say what people truly mean to us, Kailu? Very aimiable goal you have, when you see something about someone that is good, tell them. Why does it need to be so secret? Maybe we can make more slams and lifts on life, on the warm pavement and stare stony eyed into the sky, swapping disarming and curious occurances.

I've been thinking about this ever since you said that... Why do we all take so much time composing ourselves to mask what we appreciate? We just don't see how urgent it is. I believed Vazzi when he said that the people here don't look at each other much, are so quick to get angry, almost arrogant because they kind of ignore... He said it wasn't like that where he was from, where he had been.

We do find everyone in minute particulars, Blake. So when will we all see that and notice how fleeting any small message is? I try to use a person's name at least once when I am with them. Few things are more closer to you than your name, your word. Just address that they are there. Subtle things like that...

You said you got to ask yourself if you feel content with it, happy... You just say things so free of bias and judgement now and then, it's good. The world needs more of that sometimes.