It's amusing to observe the current insanity pitching a tent in my life. I don't understand how I haven't been pulled down into the undertow. Mostly I'm impartial, it doesn't tag me for very long, or call me out on the stage for anything important.
I remain pretty calm about it, but there's always that undercurrent of anger. That anger towards how unfair so many things are, and how so many just.... deal cause it's the only option they have in these closed systems.
After a long conversation with my dad I just burnt up. I can't believe that so many people live like this... THe very fact that we live in a system that has such a hidden sort of feudalism that it NEEDS to have people slaving away in half assed jobs, the very fact that it's forced on us that we need to be so separated.
I look at my parents, scooping way out of their income to keep things together . She was working herself literally to the bone to keep things going around here. She's paid with her flesh and blood, working past where she's depleted the muscles in her knees and walked only on her ligaments, or had her shoulder muscle slide off from her shoulder bones from repetitive movements... Doing something over and over that causes harm to her...
She's not special, I know so many others like this, literally scraping up any penny being underpaid or uncompensated for the workload.
There's always something to think about. Changing topics now, I wonder if I overstep things, or just underestimate situations. It's hard to say. All I know is it's difficult to know how much understandings of another can really be safely bared without repelling that person. When spoken about, it leaves me feeling a little raw radical, and uncomfortably upfront. I usually prefer to just watch, just appreciate what is, just knowing that I know is enough. But it defeats the point I guess if we always hide.
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I don't know, I like to shake things up in circumstances.
Which is odd taking the fact that I love preserving the perfection in something, not that it is perfect without flaws, just that it is perfectly itself. If you change it, or touch it, or observe it, then it is something else.
But what's the point in knowing better if you do nothing? What's the point in having the power to change someone's life for the better and not using it? By accepting their fate, and the fact that you can do nothing about it, you accept defeat. You accept that they will never be willing to change and never be willing to be themselves, to be better.
It takes a strong person to step into someone's world and change it's direction. It takes a brave person and either a smart person or a foolish one.
Even the best have made mistakes in this regard. Calculating the next move in this match of wits can be very important, but realize that many things have a timer on them. It won't be fair when it expires, but the clock won't listen, it just ticks on, unfeeling.
I can't say for certain that I've impacted lives the way that I want to. I can't say for certain that I've ever helped anyone at all. Though I try. I have failed some, and will keep trying, but once you have failed, you trail more than lead...
Anyways. The point is that you should never give up and never surrender. The only thing evil needs to win is for good men (or women in your case) to do nothing.
Observing is good, and sometimes that's most of what we can do, but we still need to put in our opinion of what is right, even if that's all we can do, it needs to be said. That way you will always be that light, and that torch. Even if they leave you for the darkness, you keep burning and they will find the light again.
Alright, enough of my insanity. Have fun.
lol, I love reading back on finished posts and realizing that after hours of going to and fro between things online, I totally fracture what I was leading into. I almost didn't post this because I didn't have the time or the mind left to lead in to what I wanted.
The second part was a review of something else, which will be discussed. I'm not talking about giving in, or extending help to anyone.
I'm talking an entirely different thing there. Though I like what you wrote and mostly agree with you.
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