There are reasons why I wish years would pass by. I want to read this all from a distance.
I told myself there was nothing there, because I thought I had done away with it. And I have, but it will sneak up on me sometimes.
I'm aware of it at least.
Perhaps this is best, at least that's what I want to believe. But it's so hard to believe in anything now, I'm afraid to. The way I thought it would be is of no comfort.
I like to run for these reasons, even at inconvenient hours, in places I don't know, cause it feels like I'm getting away from everything that I'd rather have behind me. Even if it drains me, I really don't care. I'm tired of having to be so cautious.
Everything about me wants to leave this place, to graduate and finally move away from everything I know. It's not happening soon enough.
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Y'know... You say that, until your doing it... And while I'm glad not to be moping around the house all the time or something like that, it's been scary being out here. I use those fear terms relatively, like if I'm uncomfortable I'm "scared", but I know what to do for the most part, and who to rely on. I know I'm both "scared" and exstatic to get out of Trenton and into the city... But I'll be able to move on better that way, I think... I just hope I don't snap and kill someone... Lol, that's the next big challenge.
Logan is out in the open, many, many places to hide bodies. Perhaps that is why the area is so beautiful, it has so much decaying furtilizer...not that I would know anything about such things...
But yes, there are definitely mixed feelings there which I am caught up in about this. It puts you in a new frame of mind, and life is begining to feel more and more like anarchy everyday.
Sheesh! I hadn't even thought of such things... Thanks for plunging me back into that. It's really not so much of a problem but a local and a not so local (but tends to visit) are candidates still... Thanks for making me drool with that...
And be careful, you hurt me with that daito and I might just have to arrange to bring a gun to a knife-fight...
Of course, I think I could also handle that. You forget who my brother is.
I guess that's a good point, but I must say most of that still remains in the lores of legends. I have seen knives in the most unnexpected places, but never in your home. I've seen him play at it, but still... I can believe you when I think about the unexpected places that it just seems obvious that he would have knives, but I haven't seen them... lol
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