Fingers...Cold... Heck, I'm wearing gloves indoors. This doesn't help my typing.
This sucks, badly. The temperature feels like it's below zero, and it hasn't been snowing. Just raining. If it has to be cold, can't it snow?
It won't always be this way. A year from now, I won't have to deal with Layton weather. As it turns out, the three colleges I'm considering get loads of snow. *laughs* I'm even thinking about the weather conditions of those schools.
My future seems so unclear. I'm not really sure what I want to go into, most of what I have in mind isn't reasonable, because the job that it would get me really wouldn't pay enough for me to get by. I still have some time to make up my mind, right? All I know is that later on, I want to be able to live with making a living. I want to like what I'll end up doing. And screw the 'well, in time, if you just get married, your husband will take care of it'. I can't plan my life around that kind of variable, so I'm not going to chance it. I mean, I can't depend on a guess, it's something I don't know yet.
Yeah... I went off on a tangent again. The things I do to kill off time at lunch.
& everything in between
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i am a work in progress dressed
in the fabric of a world
unfolding offering me intricate
patterns of questions
rhythms that never come clean
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4 comments:
Yes, indeed. I do wish that it would just snow. I have a more intimate look at the weather than most. It's the only job, that I can think of, in which I am simaltaneously indoors, and out of doors, at the same time.
I realize how one can't come to rely on husbandry to save her from bills and the other necessities of being independant. But this is where I'm more old fashioned. Is it really all that bad for that to happen? I am completely in favor of women going to college, I'm a knowledge seeker and I wouldn't stop anyone from that, I know how frustrating it is. But you should be able to tell a bit about the sadness of the world, of the reality at hand, when the only person you can ever trust is yourself. What a shame... And then, you find those that are so willing to be someone else...
Communicating what I'm thinking is a funny thing. No, it's definitely not a bad thing. Later on in life, I don't want to work, I want to be a mother. I don't want to have my children grow up by themselves, like I did. There's just too much I have to learn on my own.
What I was trying to say is that since I don't know what is going to happen later on, I can't just expect that everything will fall into place. I'm not planning to be a 'career woman'my whole life, other wise I'd start collecting the cats now. I don't want to be alone, I'm just saying I can be if I have to be.
I am also so old fashioned, or maybe too idealistic...
So the comment did show up...
I don't think that there's a problem with being idealistic. Everyone should be, everyone should be optimistic, but you shouldn't lie to yourself... But then, oft times it is in lying to yourself that you survive, maintain your sanity.
'Tis a powerful tool.
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